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| Why do we always strive for perfection? In everything we do, the games, the exams and our jobs, all we aim at achieving is that flawless outcome.
We spend hours and days to attempt to complete a task without a mistake, yet don't we ever realise that the impeccable situation may not always be the idealistic heaven that we strive for?
For now I say, an imperfect world is castly more significant to us than the flawless universe that we yearn for. Is it not the mistakes than we make, the catalyst to our success? Is it not the dirt in our cups that allows us to be more resistant to the wrath of nature and our surroundings? The very things we dread to meet are unknowingly the greatest gifts to ourselves.
Yet, the stupidity of man shall always be there.
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The result of keeping too many retarded people in a room for too long.
Seriously. lol
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| noice. i haven't blogged for 30 weeks now. haha. well... we lost in the 3rd and 4th placing match. We decided to sort of anyhow play anyway, cos zj didn't wanna play and we had to get someone else. I really dunno what's wrong with that guy.
Man, its REALLY irritating that even though we can win some of the BEST teams in malaysia (whom are much better than the top singapore teams at any rate), but keep losing in EVERY SINGLE COMPETITIVE MATCH that isn't against pure newbies. Even though all our team members overskill theirs, and our teamwork is better, and we're just a much better team overall, some stupid problem would intervene in the game, resulting in us losing by some really really nonsensical reason.
Don't you know the feeling where you know you can win with no sweat, and you just lose?
why does it keep happening, and happening, and happening???
maybe someone up there's teling me to stop playing dota ):
Being one of the best, and not being able to win is
just
plain
stupid.
okay i'm not trying to be ego or anything, its just that we've really spent countless hours of our lives playing the darn
game. I mean the least that we could gain from playing all that much should be at least to win competitions right?
i really hate losing.
Well, at least the consolation is that being the most polite team that gave the least trouble, they're sponsoring us to play in the other tournaments, since we have to represent the school and all. But i swear, if we lose again, i'm going
quit dota. seriously. - Mood:disappointed
 - Music:emoing with yiruma
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| mann.. i haven't posted for years.
been too lazy to do so actually.
anyway...
i think i had too much fun the last weekend when i had planned to study
FRIDAY - tennis with pete, zj and my brother
SATURDAY -
tennis in the morning with pete,
attempted(but failed) to study with pete for the rest of the entire morning,
went over to alex's house with gid to practice chem for the afternoon but accomplished alot less than i expected to,
came back to have dinner and went over to gid's house to practice math
ended up practicing for half and hour and TOPSPINNING for the rest of the night
SUNDAY -
i visited gideons church
well, to be honest, church life back in LWMC has been really dead for a loooong time. Sigh, i really didn't know so much drama could have been created in a church. I mean, its as bad as to the fact that i'd be able to probably write one of those really exaggerated chinese drama serials with the series of events that happened. But the really weird thing was that i was actually in the middle of most of them.
I don't know, it could have been me that created all those issues, but then again it couldn't have been me as well.
But sometimes i just feel so darn irritated at myself
Well, so all those drama has led the church life at LWMC to drop from being one of the most significant things to me to be so distraught that sometimes i really wonder why i'm even going there anymore.
I've been going there since i was primary two, and the connection between me and church has suddenly turned into nothing. I don't even feel the sense of belonging there anymore.
And there's that stupid mistake that i made that still continues to bother me.
Keeps me wondering what would be different if i didn't do it
or maybe it wouldn't have affected anything at all
Sometimes, i really, really, wish it could be same as before
mann... relaxing as it is, i think this playlist is really making me emo
why in the world am i even wasting my time blogging when i should be studying?
Aaaaaah what's happening to your life alan.
Get a grip
It's time to study
- Mood:depressed
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| hmm
haven't posted for a while
guess there hasn't been much to post about
just that rush hour 3 and bourne ultimatum are must-watch movies
i've been full hardworking over the last few days. guess i really need to get into the studying mood before actually starting to study for the end of years.
on another note, i've aspired to learn this song on the guitar
Angelina by Tommy Emmanuel
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| Well, didn't go to school today due to the huge(okay fine not THAT huge) amount of work that i had to do.
and the fact that the 1h40min chinese and 1h PC would be wasting my time
and well, i'm sick.
spent the entire morning on getting my non-existent CAS file ready
took a break and now im going to finish up my TOK essay which was due 145215years ago
and then finish up the econs mcq and study for the chem test
however, i have come to the conclusion that i should have gone to school
it's not that i feel guilty or anything
home's just kinda boring if you stay in the whole day
espescially since GE's down from 10 to 4
darn.
i HAVE to get out of the house later. - Mood:bored
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| dang.
my days and getting busier and busier.
anyway
I've been determined to train my heart out for tennis and hopefully get into the first 11 next year
however, its like a 1% chance that i'll ever make it
and thats IF i train my very best
mannnnn
wish i could've started tennis like... 12 years ago like most of the top players have
instead stupid stupid alan went to change his main sport a gazillion times
from badminton
to basketball
to field hockey
to floorball
to track
and finally
to tennis
and this makes me the jack of all trades, and the master of none
kinda sucks if you think about it
i need something to be good at
such that people can actually remember me for it
other than eating and sleeping of course(:
its like an ocean breeze
blowing on your face
its like the summer sun
with its warm embrace
like the gentle rain
plays a symphony
thats what i want
my praise to be - Mood:contemplative
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| hahaha today was funny.
some finished reading the last harry potter book, including me
some were in the midst of reading and even brought their books to school to read
some just screwed the book and got people to tell them what happened
AND
everyone were giving hell to those who were reading the book by trying to spoil their story of by telling them plots that have nothing to do with the story
e.g.
HERMOINE IS ACTUALLY HARRY'S SISTER
THE GIANT SQUID ATE VOLDEMORT
VOLDEMORT TOOK OFF HIS MASK AND REVEALED TO THE WORLD THAT HE WAS ACTUALLY JAMES POTTER
*I AM YOUR FATHER*
LOL
a.k.a STARWARS
VOLDEMORT KILLED HARRY AND RULED THE WORLD
DRACO MET DUDLEY AND BECAME BEST FRIENDS
and you get the picture
for some weird reason, all those plots came from me
hahahahaha
then went for RECREATIONAL TENNIS
mannn... it was really fun
me and pete were in the advanced side
so we ended up having private coaching by the almighty matthew liu
but he sadistically made the both of us run and run for the ball till i almost died
but its alright
at this rate, i'll be a PRO soon
all i need is to be more consistent
*consistency is the key* - Mood:exhausted
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| hmm, its finally the end of the weekend
just REALISED that i basically did only two main things throughout the entire week
1. Read the 7th book of harry potter by 3pm on saturday
2. Played dota till it started coming out of my ears
btw THE BOOK IS AMAZING
its really a must-read
it even makes all the other books seem crap
everybody get a copy and read it yeah?
or your storyline would be inevitably spoiled by someone sooner or later
haha
on another note
there's this really amazing beatboxer that matthew just linked to me
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